No Guilt Feeling In U

Seriously, which part do you not understand ? The "IM" or the "SICK" ??

Whenever I told you that 'im sick', you tend to tell me that you're sick too. I was tired of telling you how sick I was and that i needed your help in giving me time to get well by eating my medicine whenever i am supposed to but you never did realise that i was truly sick. I kept repeating the same thing to you til i told you i'm tired of telling you the same thing and you said ' if you're tired, don't say or shut up'. Finally, God have been really nice to you, he have already grant your daily words/wish. I was wondering if you're happy with your wish!

The bottle gonna crack

I broke down every single day and night though i know it won't do me/my life any better but i can't help it with the pain i felt inside. No one knew how it feels like to be this way. I kept every littlest and biggest things inside my heart. I have always thought that my heart is truely shattered but it seems that i still can kept all the pain to myself. I have yet to tell others about my life, all i said was 'dont be like me, get married and have a happy beginning.'

Every lady wants a perfect wedding plan, perfect happy family and a perfect married life or the least we wish to have is a sweet married life that contains you, me and baby. I didn't get to invite anyone to my Wedding 'cause i'm not even married yet but i already have a child. Normal Vagina Delivery, perfectly borned. I don't even know have a perfect or happy family between me, siblings and parents neither do i have a happy family with my love one, Muhammad Rahmat. I've made a wrong turn and even if i'm forgiven but we'll never what lies deep inside his heart. Perhaps, revenge is a revenge for the rest of my life. How long can i stand everything in life?

I'm helpless and hopeless!

DILEMMA

Though, i know its the past about that bitch but i still wonder.. Why do you have to play behind my back when we're becoming a family? We bringing a new life to the world and yet you still play around.. When will you ever take things seriously? You've once told me that you had never love your ex girlfriend like you do to me but at times, i remember how you tell me about your life with them.. But i had never hear you saying that you played behind their backs like you did to me. I felt like as if I was nothing to be compared to them.

I realy dont know how to lead life now. :'( 'cause everyone is looking down on me. No matter how truthful i be, still people look at me as the bad person. Everyone likes you instead of me. I dont have anyone else in life but you. So please treat me right and not take me for granted.

Rahmat, This goes out to you.

I didn't know what went wrong with baby aufa. Neither do i even know what went wrong with my heart. I don't know what more you want from me. I don't know why you're treating me this way. I stayed up all night til halfway thru morning and thought i would have overslept if i sleep at 3AM. I promise to meet you at 8AM, so i decided to stay awake.. You went online and we chatted awhile with you warning me not to spoil your mood. Few minutes after that you told me to sleep? I stayed awake for you just to meet you. I don't know who have caught your heart. I don't know if you love me, still. But if you think, you love her more than you do to me. Forget me then. I know this gonna hurt me for life but what is left to say or do, i'll end up getting hurt too in any way. Sayang, Kalau you fikir i suka tuduh you sembarangan.. I minta maaf. Maafkan i klau cinta dan kasih sayang i terhadap you tak pernah sempurna. Janji² kita untuk sehidup semati, kita kuburkan sahaja jika you ada orang lain di dalam hati. I minta maaf atas segala kelakuan i terhadap you sejak i pertama mengenali you. I bodoh sebab i percaya yang you tak akan berpaling dari i. I bodoh sebab i fikir you tak pernah mempermainkan cinta i. I bodoh sebab terlalu percaya yang cinta you terhadap i takkan pudar. Lihatlah kebawah.. Kelakuan you bila i takda disamping you. Demi Allah, I cinta Sangat kat you dan tak pernah cinta seseorang sebegini. You lah orang pertama. I taknak ungkit, tapi i cuma nak you buka mata you ape yang you lakukan selama ini belakang i.

Ya Allah, I can't handle everything at once without your help.
Kun Fa Ya Kun

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What is this all about? You didn't tell me about this?

You said you won't keep secrets from me? But you still do? :'(